I go back to black

Somehow I managed to sign up for more than a full-time semester again. I decided to add an arabic-grammar-class that's a bit too advanced for me in addition to the classes I'd been planning on taking. Actually, i was just planning to so a 50% study, work, and not recieve loans or scolarships, but in spite of my general useless-ness, there is just something oh-so-tempting about all those books when i see them on their shelves, when i read the class-descriptions and picture all that knowledge in my head, all ready for use. So i signed up. So now i am going for a 150% studying-season, which means uni every day till mid-october atleast. Not much time for work and money-saving. But then again i'll probably get approved for scholarships once i get my credits transfered form Egypt. Anyhow, I'll follow the grammar-class as far as i can, and then drop it before exams if I'm not keeping up. I mean, I could use the extra credits, but what i really want is just to learn. Luckily, there are more people who'se learned their grammar in other institutions, so not everyone is as good as the Bergen-bread students.

Being back in anthro-class is great. The relaxed atmosphere, people being there because they really want to and actually being able to reflect on your subject is so liberating. The only gramatical challenge is interpreting the pompous sentence-construction into common speach. And i love that. So I've got latin ethnography (kudos to the super-organized inspiering professor who manages to keep the attention of a million students for 3 hrs straight, so refreshing), a political/power/violence kind of anthroclass, an egyptian/fusha comparisation and the fusha grammar-class (which is the one i might need to drop).

So before you ask; No, I'm not pregnant (that picture was a joke), I don't know if i'm still sick (still fatigued and not sleeping, but i haven't had any bloodwork done since early may, and i'm walking straight so there!) I've been back at my old job where i'll probably continue working, only taking a brake around semesterstart to get my studies back on track, Yes, I'm in Bergen, and i will definately stay atleast till early december, and no, i don't know how i feel about that.

Discard my friends to change the scenery

I've turned into my parents. I don't know how the hell it happened.

I get a pounding headache if i don't get my morning coffee. I have taken up giggeling in nervous contexts, and i can't sit still. Yesterday i got a migraine that nearly knocked me out, and the other day i told a man that i was the one in charge there. I spend my days in uniforms and marching-boots and i am starting to think it's time to pack up and work abroad for a while. I can pick up on conversations in languages i've never heard, but i'm incapable of learning new ones.

I did a horrible job at work this weekend and now i'm indulging in self-hathred and cookies. I'm living prison, i am dreaming prison, i am wearing it, i'm even eating it. I'm taking a few days off. I'm no good to people when i'm stressed out. Money are ticking in though, and i am signing up for new classes. Maybe i'll get out of here for a while sometime over winter. I miss people i can level with. Or find on another level than i can at work.

OOhhh, i almost forgot; I see all these animals around here nowadays. Heaps of hedgehogs, which i lovelovelove, and tiny mice and owls when i go for nighttime-walks. And the air! My gosh, the air here is so great. I guess i've never really payed much attention to the scenery here, it's the kind of thing that's always been around, but it's so pretty. Not even in Sweden have i seen anything like it. Sometimes in photos from certain places in Switzerland, but i never been. Maybe i'll ask my sis if it's similar.