Discard my friends to change the scenery

I've turned into my parents. I don't know how the hell it happened.

I get a pounding headache if i don't get my morning coffee. I have taken up giggeling in nervous contexts, and i can't sit still. Yesterday i got a migraine that nearly knocked me out, and the other day i told a man that i was the one in charge there. I spend my days in uniforms and marching-boots and i am starting to think it's time to pack up and work abroad for a while. I can pick up on conversations in languages i've never heard, but i'm incapable of learning new ones.

I did a horrible job at work this weekend and now i'm indulging in self-hathred and cookies. I'm living prison, i am dreaming prison, i am wearing it, i'm even eating it. I'm taking a few days off. I'm no good to people when i'm stressed out. Money are ticking in though, and i am signing up for new classes. Maybe i'll get out of here for a while sometime over winter. I miss people i can level with. Or find on another level than i can at work.

OOhhh, i almost forgot; I see all these animals around here nowadays. Heaps of hedgehogs, which i lovelovelove, and tiny mice and owls when i go for nighttime-walks. And the air! My gosh, the air here is so great. I guess i've never really payed much attention to the scenery here, it's the kind of thing that's always been around, but it's so pretty. Not even in Sweden have i seen anything like it. Sometimes in photos from certain places in Switzerland, but i never been. Maybe i'll ask my sis if it's similar.